The time when I least like myself..

My semi exams are looming so close. Exams will start on 5th. They put up the exam schedule this Friday. I feel lost. I feel like as if I'm in the middle of nowhere. I haven't finished studying. I don't think I can finish revising all before the exams. On top of this, we have lectures until 4th..Not a single damn day of study leave. This time we are having all the Neuro modules and..ohhh..I don't know what I'm going to do.

This is the thing about med school I think.. you can never know everything. Maybe It's planned to prevent that. You can only hope you know enough of the right things and have the balls to go in and take the test anyway..Or maybe its just me feeling this way!

I've been bit confident about some modules ..But now when I tried to go through them quickly..I feel like I don't remember anything...My self esteem is very low now..Its going down with every time I try to remember something and I couldn't ...and It'll be lowest just before the exam..and that's the time I least like myself - those 24 hours preceding the exams!

I wont be around here much till my exams are over. So everyone please excuse me for not being regular with posts or comments on your blogs...I'll catch up with ya all soon after the exams.

Rapunzel Rapunzel! Let down thy hair!

Someone is all set to become a modern day Rapunzel very soon. Yes its me! And trust me, I'm not so happy about it.

I happen to have very long , thick, black wavy hair. I love my hair of course..But now its getting bit too long and I find it very hard to manage it on my own. I regret having such thick hair only when I find myself having to comb and put all this in a plait when I'm nearly late for the lectures.

I get a hair cut once in every 2 months or so. When I say hair cut, it actually means hair trimming or reshaping it and shortening it up to my waist length. But it grows again too fast and catches up with my mid thigh level before I could trim it again. Just like magic! Cutting it up to my shoulder level should solve this problem. Its not just that..I also love to iron my hair like many other girls :)..But there are two things which impede in carrying out this solution. Firstly, my mom and then -My mind itself! Mom doesn't approve of cutting my hair too short nor ironing. But I know she would allow me to do so, at least reluctantly - only if I could persuade her more. But I find it hard to do that because somewhere in the corner of my mind I'm happy with this hair... Such contradictions..! I'm getting tired of such contradictions of my own mind! *Of course girls minds work in mysterious ways..!*

I asked my friends for some opinion which would help me to make up my mind and decide. My friends say I've got gorgeous hair and so not to ruin it. Still some of them say It'll look more lovely if I cut it and iron it. *Thank U..It really helped..I'm more confused now :P.*

During last Christmas holidays I pleaded with my mom so much so that at last she granted permission to do temporary ironing but made me promise to her that I wont cut it too short after ironing. Well, I tried ironing and it was a disaster! My thigh length hair became knee length.. It attracted so many eyes on the streets and shopping malls and I received so many requests to divulge my secret of charming hair *Rolls eyes* I hate it when people stare.. Well anyway I've learned my lesson- Not to iron my hair again without cutting it short :).

Well..In short - I'm now in a kind of dilemma..Torn between the wish to have a new 'easy to manage' hair and a desire to keep my 'hard to manage but lovely to look at' hair. As for now..Until I change my mind again.. I guess I'll have to stand on the top of a tower, put my hair down through a window and wait for my Prince charming :D

I've been Tagged!

Another Tag..I've been tagged by Brocasarea, Hemanth and Saranya..Thanks everyone.. I've done it at last!!

I had a bit of problem doing it coz the 3 questionnaires were a bit different. So I chose few questions from each.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

If someone truly loves you then they wont betray..True love never knows betrayal.

2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?

to be happy alllll the time..

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?

There are too many to list..;)

4. Why do you blog?

Well..Mmm I love to blabber..hehe :)

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

That'd be wonderful! so why not? ;)

6. Which is more blessed: loving someone or being loved by someone?

I say - both. Either way, it is a blessing that you could feel the love.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?

I really don't know. I'm not intending to wait or rush into a relationship.

8. If the person you secretly like is attached, what will you do?

Well..I'll simply let go, I think. :P

9. If you could root for one social cause, what would it be?

Against war!

10. What takes you down the fastest?

Lies and flirts..

11. What scares you?

Cockroach..!! :(

12. What’s your strength?

Being able to smile everyday despite my problems and worries.. :)

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Brocasarea - A hard working medico who loves his studies :)

Hemanth - A Sweet person who'd give everything in friendship. :)

Saranya - A beloved friend who cherishes friendship :)

4. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?

Its really hard to say. I prefer the way I am now. But if I love someone poor..then being poor wouldn't stop me from marrying that someone :)

15. What is the first thing you do when you wake up?

Check the time!

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick?

I don't think its possible to fall in love with 2 people. True love is meant for only 1.

Falling for 2 people at once is nothing more than infatuation or attraction.

17. Would you give all in a relationship?

Yes!

18. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he has done?

Honestly speaking, I find it hard to forgive easily..It takes me sometime to forget..But I always do forgive & forget in the end..I hate to hold grudge against people..

19. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?

I'm single now and loving it..!! So I prefer it this way..:)

May be I'll have to eat my words when I end up having an affair..I don't know.. :P

20. Tag 6 people.

This is the hardest part. Everyone I know have already done this tag and 3 of them have tagged me before I could tag any of them..

So I'm tagging anyone who wants to do this tag :)