New year..New prospects..!

Its 2013! Have a fabulous year ahead everyone ! :)

This place has become somewhere where I peek in once every year.. Looks like I'm not getting any better with my time management issues. Or may be its just that Im just too lazy to write up anything.

Last year had been too hectic. And..I know this year is going to be far worse,  with my final year exams and all. I just hope I have it in me to get through.

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Last minute problem..

Life is hectic as ever and I still do things in the last minute..as always. Why I leave things till the last minute is still a mystery to me. I plan everything ahead and try to work things on time and at times it even looks like I might be able to finish up early. But still..somehow.. when the time comes, I find my self loaded down with so many unfinished tasks and stuff ! Even in the exams, while I write the answers, I plan and allocate time for each question..But in the end, I always find myself scribbling like a maniac to finish on time.

My friends say I seek too much of perfection and control on everything I do and that’s why I take too long to finish..Though I’m not sure about that I must admit I look for satisfaction in whatever I do..Seeking job satisfaction and being a perfectionist are two different things..at least so in my opinion.

I mean, if I’m not happy about what I do, then what’s the point? Ah..well, enough with my ranting. Hope I’ll get the hang of this time problem of mine soon..or may be not  :P

Happy weekend everyone!

The passive observers..

Most of the time people prefer to be just passive observers..Not wanting to get involved..Especially if the situation is tricky and doesn’t  directly involve them..But as it’s famously said- what goes around comes around.

I’m one of those people who speak their mind and act on impulse..somehow it gives me a sense of completeness, sense of relief that I’ve got nothing to hide, nothing to act about. But I almost always get into trouble for that..troubles which initially had nothing to do with me.

Sometimes I wonder whether I should also become a passive observer..and stay out of trouble. It would help  me stay out of trouble..Would keep me away from unnecessary stress..But then I’ll miss being myself..I won’t get that sense of freedom and relief. Unspoken words and the consequences will always haunt me.  I guess its better to be ‘myself’....Outspoken and a trouble magnet.. yet original..

This and that and a little something !

2011 is just 4 days away..and it feels like this year has passed in a blink. Ahh..well I always feel like that when something is coming to an end :)

I haven’t been around in blogs ville this year. Made only 1 post without counting this... Feeling like a stranger in my own space. Well..I didn't stay away on purpose. I just didn't feel like writing anything… May be i was running out of ideas and topics.. May be I was too busy with my nose buried in ‘bailey and love’..Or maybe it was just me being too lazy.. *typical* ;)

With only 4 days left to say adieu to 2010, I felt like a post is long overdue here..I had no idea about what I was going to write. Nevertheless I just started typing randomly and then..I realized, all of a sudden, how much  I missed this place...All this time I thought I’ve lost my passion for writing..! I think I should put more effort into blogging..Or maybe I should  take care of my time management issues first..!

This Christmas had been really wet, cold and freezing as ever..But not even the heavy rains could dampen the festive spirit..Hope everyone enjoyed the Christmas..For me, the 1 week break for Christmas had been the highlight. :)

Well anyway..This year had been a really busy one..And, the next year is going to be even busier. Just finished the 2nd medicine appointment..and now so looking forward to start my 2nd surgical appointment…I know its going to be tough , hectic and everything..But still I’m sure I’ll enjoy it ! :)

That's enough for one post..Now I should probably get back to revising for the exams…

Cheers everyone..! Wishing you all a very bright 2011..!

Negligence and insomnia..

I’ve been such a big procrastinator…so that now I’m struggling to finish my revision in time before the exams..Already feeling overworked and exhausted..Every time I find myself in such a situation, I resolve that I would never ever leave my works till the last minute…But again..alas..I neglect my resolution..postpone things….and struggle with work load in the last minute and suffer with insomnia. Nowadays my brain is so full of physiology and pathology…and its buzzing all the time.. so that I’ve become an insomniac. :(

Well anyway, I hadn’t been much around in blogs Ville for weeks now..That's because I moved to a new place  and it took so long for the telecom people to move my telephone line and ADSL. They couldn't find a loop nearby my house. By the time they managed to give me the ADSL connection, I was on the verge of getting drowned by my studies..

I haven't read any of your blogs lately…I’m so sorry friends..I’ll catch up with allll your posts soon.  As for now, I have to finish revising for my semi exams which are scheduled next week and for my phase1 exams which will begin in August 1st week.

Here is a nice video about procrastination. Its funny..but very true :)

Have a nice week end..!

Is this really the END..?

I thought a long time about whether or not I was going to comment on any of this.. In the end I decided that I should speak my mind..I should speak about what’s really happening around me in my country..

The Srilankan President Mahinda Rajapaksa declared yesterday,in the parliment, Victory in the country’s 30year civil war against LTTE.. Today has been declared as a public holiday over the nation to celebrate the victory.

Following are a few quotes from the president’s speech-

"We have won and restored democracy in the country."

"a new country ... a new nation,"

"the defeat of Tamil terrorism ... a victory for the Tamil people."

Also the Sri Lankan military has released pictures of Tamil Tiger leader Velupillai Prabhakaran which it says prove conclusively that he is dead. There were too many contradictory announcements by the Army, which aroused many doubts over the reliability of the news. The BBC says- “ The government argues that there are perfectly innocent explanations for the differing accounts of Prabhakaran's death - that in war time what is happening on the battlefront can sometimes get confused.”

Now..Is this really the END? has the war really come to an END? Is the suffering of Tamils over yet? Does this mean an end to the conflict in SL?

My answer is “NO”.

The Srilankans are dancing in the streets, firing fire crackers, playing bands and songs, burning models of prabhakaran, and so on..They are celebrating. Not all the Srilankans are celebrating though.  I mean, what is there to celebrate really? This war has brought nothing but loss and death on both sides.   So many innocent Singhalese and Tamils have lost their lives. Suicide bombings and Artillery attacks!! The nation is floating in a river of blood and violence.  This war turned out nothing but a terrible genocide.

Recently I had the opportunity to interact with the Tamil casualties  brought by ship from the war zone to Trinco. They said that they had been held back by the tigers in the war zone as human shields…They blame tigers for many deaths. Anyway, were they relieved to have escaped from there? No they were still worried..if possible, more than before..They were worried about the Army ..They were all considered by the army as LTTE..Even a small baby with amputated limbs..!!  They don’t feel safe anywhere. Why they are condemned to feel insecure in their own mother nation? 

What is the future of these people? They have suffered severely in this devastating war..They suffered loss because of both the tigers and the SL army. Nobody cared for their lives. Now they are left with nothing but despair. They have no hope about their future. It worries me to think what’s next?

 

Although the nation is celebrating the Victory, the suffering of the Tamils is far from over. 

Here are some incidents which show how the future is going to be -

**As soon as the news of victory reached the nation, the Singhalese people started to threaten the innocent Tamils who live among them. I was in Colombo when this news reached the public. Me and my brother were walking out from KFC, and there was a group of Tamil boys walking before us with handful of  chocolates. Then there came a group of boys, apparently Singhalese, in a van, playing loud Singhalese song.  One of the boys in the van opened the van door and kicked the boys walking before us & laughed as they fell down. Then they screamed some very rude words at us and drove away.  I was SHOCKED! I never expected this. That was just an example of what’s happening here now.

**All over the nation, those who don’t have a National Flag flying out in their houses or workplaces are being brutally attacked. I’m now back in Batticaloa and here they are handing out National flags in the streets and ordering people to hoist them at their houses. I ask you, Is this what you call ‘democracy’? Is this what you call as the ‘Victory’? 

Now there are more than 300000 internally displaced people in the Vavuniya camps. No international media or international help workers are allowed in there. Nobody knows what’s going to happen to those people..What's their future?

War cannot bring peace. No way. Even though the so called civil war may seem to have come to an end, it really is not. As long as the Tamils and Singhalese don't learn to live together, as long as they consider each other as a threat, as long as the Tamils are deprived of their right to live in this nation, this war will never come to an end. 

 Unless the Tamils and Singhalese learn to share and live together, so many Prabhakaran’s will rise..&.the war will continue…Unless the Tamils & Singhalese understand that they are children of same land and therefore siblings, they will continue to hurt and kill each other…more innocent lives will be lost..

Why are the Tamils considered as invaders in their own mother land? Why do we need to separate the land? Why can’t we all live together in a united SriLanka?  Why can’t we love each other and live in harmony? Why is it so hard to LOVE??? Why is it so hard to bring PEACE??

The nation which worships Buddha and his teachings  is covered in blood  now..His teachings lay forgotten..Only the God knows the answers..He only know whether this nation will ever get rid of its blood stains and enmity.

Long Hot Summer & the desert island question

Finally it is raining here..Not so heavy ..just little drizzles..But it  feels wonderful to have cooler climate for a change.. The temperature had been so high for many weeks now..always around 32 degree C. It was like sitting in an oven the whole time..The sun was so hot and burning…Imagine having to go out in this weather!!!

It is so hot even in the mornings and the nights are even hotter. No need to use water heater in the morning , coz the tank water is always sooo hot . So instead, you definitely need a water cooler in the bathroom to prevent getting burned up by the hot hot water!

The worst part of it is that 2 days ago, we had a  power cut in the night which lasted for about 3 hours!! 3 looong hotttt darkk hours..Omg! I thought I would die coz of the intense humidity and heat.

Thank goodness..I survived that heat & humidity and I’m still alive..!!

Anyhoodle…this recent ordeal without electricity left me thinking about things that really matter nowadays.. Comforts and luxuries that have become part of our lives that we consider them as essentials..

So I decided to make my own list of must haves, say if I were stranded on a desert island. (I got this idea after reading Tia’s list of must-haves..) what would I really NEED to survive? What could I never live without?  And if these items were narrowed down to a choice of only five, what would I choose to have?

Here we go-

1. My laptop..Now really..how am I supposed to survive without it?  How else could I check my mails, Write this blog, keep in touch with friends..etc? How?? *Well I’m assuming here that I’ll have wi-fi on this desert island ;)  *

2. Insect killer spray!! *You know..I’m very much scared of insects, esp- roaches..and from what I’ve seen in discovery and animal planet, the deserts house many of those insects..Can’t imagine myself staying anywhere without an insect killer*

3. Edward Cullen..:)) *Hoping Bella doesn’t get to know about this*     He is the best companion for a girl in a desert island.

Coz he sparkles in the sun, thus attracting passing planes and boosting chances of rescue….  he's cold-skinned so he would be able to keep you cool in even the hottest of tropical temperatures; AND he adds beauty to the surrounding scenery :)) 

4. Mc-Donald's restaurant *C’mon..I need to eat and drink..So why shouldn’t it be my favourite?* As this is MY desert island list, I feel as though I'm entitled to bring whatever I want…hehe:) 5. A luxury cottage..*Duh..I can’t always hang around in sun..Too much sun is not good for skin..and I need somewhere to charge my laptop..Besides..this is MY list, remember? ;))..         * And, dont worry about  Edward, He can share with me ;)) :P

Well..that’s my desert island list. What is yours?? :)

Have a great week everyone!!

Rapunzel Rapunzel! Let down thy hair!

Someone is all set to become a modern day Rapunzel very soon. Yes its me! And trust me, I'm not so happy about it.

I happen to have very long , thick, black wavy hair. I love my hair of course..But now its getting bit too long and I find it very hard to manage it on my own. I regret having such thick hair only when I find myself having to comb and put all this in a plait when I'm nearly late for the lectures.

I get a hair cut once in every 2 months or so. When I say hair cut, it actually means hair trimming or reshaping it and shortening it up to my waist length. But it grows again too fast and catches up with my mid thigh level before I could trim it again. Just like magic! Cutting it up to my shoulder level should solve this problem. Its not just that..I also love to iron my hair like many other girls :)..But there are two things which impede in carrying out this solution. Firstly, my mom and then -My mind itself! Mom doesn't approve of cutting my hair too short nor ironing. But I know she would allow me to do so, at least reluctantly - only if I could persuade her more. But I find it hard to do that because somewhere in the corner of my mind I'm happy with this hair... Such contradictions..! I'm getting tired of such contradictions of my own mind! *Of course girls minds work in mysterious ways..!*

I asked my friends for some opinion which would help me to make up my mind and decide. My friends say I've got gorgeous hair and so not to ruin it. Still some of them say It'll look more lovely if I cut it and iron it. *Thank U..It really helped..I'm more confused now :P.*

During last Christmas holidays I pleaded with my mom so much so that at last she granted permission to do temporary ironing but made me promise to her that I wont cut it too short after ironing. Well, I tried ironing and it was a disaster! My thigh length hair became knee length.. It attracted so many eyes on the streets and shopping malls and I received so many requests to divulge my secret of charming hair *Rolls eyes* I hate it when people stare.. Well anyway I've learned my lesson- Not to iron my hair again without cutting it short :).

Well..In short - I'm now in a kind of dilemma..Torn between the wish to have a new 'easy to manage' hair and a desire to keep my 'hard to manage but lovely to look at' hair. As for now..Until I change my mind again.. I guess I'll have to stand on the top of a tower, put my hair down through a window and wait for my Prince charming :D

Joining in the Holiday spirit..!

Holidays at last..! Just 1 week though..:( *sigh*. Well still its holiday..!! :) I'll be able to get up anytime I want and do anything I want...at least for a few days..Yey! Isn't that wonderful..? *Whoops*

I know I shouldn't be feeling too relaxed as my exams are looming nearer and I'm supposed to be revising during these days..But..all the same- I couldn't help feeling elated and relaxed. Well, I'm not going to study anything today, at the very least :). I've spent the whole evening listening to my precious Harry potter Audio book (Currently 6th one - Half blood Prince) I'm mad about Harry and I've read the whole series more than 20 times..Nowadays I don't get much time to sit relaxing with HP and read..so I listen to the audio books instead, while I'm eating, driving, washing, etc..Audio books are good but still..there's nothing better than reading a book yourself..Yep, I prefer reading myself.

Christmas celebrations have begun already..Though the celebrations and preparations are bit quieter than usual. Or perhaps its just me imagining like that.

Another Christmas & another year ahead of us..I don't think the world has changed much except for the outbreak of few more wars and spread of poverty and sufferings..Even as you're reading this.. many people are suffering, killed or being deprived of food and shelter..in my mother land as well as in many parts of the world..There are many children around the world who doesn't even get the Christmas scent in the air.. As I think of it, I realize how very fortunate and blessed I am..If there's anything I wish for this Christmas, it is Peace and Love for everyone in the world.

I love this song by Late Singer Melanie Thornton -"Wonderful dream of Peace and love for everyone..." I love the lyrics and music.. One of my favorite Christmas season songs..

I wish this dream comes true someday..:)

I'm going home to Colombo tomorrow morning. I'm not going to stay there for long though. Planning to get back here on Wednesday and revise at least for 3 days.. Mom and Dad are not happy about me getting back early. They feel that I ought to stay till college reopens....Typical.. ;)

So Until I get back..BYE everyone..Have a great week end, Happy Holidays and Advanced Christmas wishes to alllll...:)

Lonely Navaratri..

Today is the last day of Navaratri and tomorrow is vijayathasami. For those who dont know - Saraswati pooja is celebrated on the 9th day of navaratri, for Goddess Saraswati (the presiding deity of the spoken word).

This year I couldnt go home for saraswati pooja due to my heavy schedule. This is the first time I ever missed a saraswati pooja at home. Some of my batchmates cut the lectures and went home of course. But I didnt feel like missing the lectures and so decided to stay despite my mom's persuation to come home. Well it wasnt easy to decide to stay...It took me looongg to decide on this issue and now I regret my decision. Because the lectures were cancelled yesterday and today and I'm stuck here on my own for absolutely nothing. Alone in my room...missing my home, family and pooja..I just wish I had gone home...